I’ve been playing phone tag with the first solid lead I’ve gotten on a job in over a year.

A little bit of hope is an amazing thing.

Its energized me to clean, focus and do things I’ve been putting off.  Its given me a positive outlook that I haven’t been able to find for a long time.

Its also made me nervous to actually talk to them.  The odds are good that I don’t get it.  The job is exactly what I’ve been doing for the last few years, but I don’t have any of the “experience” they are looking for.

Right now its clean and exciting and perfect, but I’m just not sure how that rejection could affect me.

Sometimes a little bit of hope is a terrible thing.